The last 3 weeks felt like eternity. There's so much that happened so i'm going to try my best to summarize. My results for this month were:
3/5 +140 Borgata
3/6 +80 Bloomfield
3/8 +455 Bloomfield
3/14 +190 Bloomfield
3/17 -212 Bloomfield
3/18 +1100 Borgata
3/20 +450 Club 52
3/24 +120 Club 52
3/25 +165 Bloomfield
3/25 -570 (Start of downswing) Bloomfield
3/26 -305 Bloomfield
4/1 +250 Private NYC apt. (5/5 game)
4/3 -600 Bloomfield
I haven't done the math yet but i have $691 left. I also paid off $1200 to my mom for expenses for March so that took a huge chunk. This month was pretty rough for me emotionally as well. Not in the beginning but towards the end I kinda started to lose it. I need to find a productive way to let out built-up steam. I'm not really sure what happened without going into crazy theories and endless hypothetical situations but towards the end of the month I played 2 bad sessions in Bloomfield.
I don't count them bad because I lost, it's the way that it happened. A lot of things didn't go my way but the part that gets to me is that i let it get ahold of me and it crumbled my composure at the table. I felt completely transparent. Towards the end it was just pathetic, my last hand i get bluffed for less than $80 pot by a pair of 4's on A J T 4 3 board, 3 clubs. Had J8.
After that i knew i had to get poker out of my head atleast for the weekend. I ended up going to Ithaca for a few days to chill with Alex. We went sake bombing with her OT's on Friday night and just relaxed saturday and sunday. There couldn't have been any better timing for that to happen.
Another big issue that was heavy on my mind especially towards the end of the month was moving out. I obviously had alot of time to weigh my options and see what i could research on the internet. At the time i had about $1900 so realistically finding a place is very possible. Especially since my dad was telling me every day for multiple days to specifically move out and find a place. One day he said he'd even cover the first month's rent and deposit.
Apparently it turned out all of this was just talk because my mom must have changed his mind. She prefers me to stay home for a few reasons, 1. saving money, 2. safety, 3. keeping an eye on me.
Whatever, it turned out that i hit a downswing and can't afford a place anyway.
So in conclusion,
Grinding out poker is really hard. I think as long as I give everything I've got in my body to this, it will pay off in the future. Unfortunetly for now, i don't have any guidance (mentor wise) so learning is mostly going to be made from trial and error.....however long it takes i guess.
I'm pretty excited to see what will happen a year from now. Even a few months could bring anything. I guess i'll have to keep breathing to find out.
3/5 +140 Borgata
3/6 +80 Bloomfield
3/8 +455 Bloomfield
3/12 +525 Bloomfield
3/13 +500 Borgata3/14 +190 Bloomfield
3/17 -212 Bloomfield
3/18 +1100 Borgata
3/20 +450 Club 52
3/24 +120 Club 52
3/25 +165 Bloomfield
3/25 -570 (Start of downswing) Bloomfield
3/26 -305 Bloomfield
4/1 +250 Private NYC apt. (5/5 game)
4/3 -600 Bloomfield
I haven't done the math yet but i have $691 left. I also paid off $1200 to my mom for expenses for March so that took a huge chunk. This month was pretty rough for me emotionally as well. Not in the beginning but towards the end I kinda started to lose it. I need to find a productive way to let out built-up steam. I'm not really sure what happened without going into crazy theories and endless hypothetical situations but towards the end of the month I played 2 bad sessions in Bloomfield.
I don't count them bad because I lost, it's the way that it happened. A lot of things didn't go my way but the part that gets to me is that i let it get ahold of me and it crumbled my composure at the table. I felt completely transparent. Towards the end it was just pathetic, my last hand i get bluffed for less than $80 pot by a pair of 4's on A J T 4 3 board, 3 clubs. Had J8.
After that i knew i had to get poker out of my head atleast for the weekend. I ended up going to Ithaca for a few days to chill with Alex. We went sake bombing with her OT's on Friday night and just relaxed saturday and sunday. There couldn't have been any better timing for that to happen.
Another big issue that was heavy on my mind especially towards the end of the month was moving out. I obviously had alot of time to weigh my options and see what i could research on the internet. At the time i had about $1900 so realistically finding a place is very possible. Especially since my dad was telling me every day for multiple days to specifically move out and find a place. One day he said he'd even cover the first month's rent and deposit.
Apparently it turned out all of this was just talk because my mom must have changed his mind. She prefers me to stay home for a few reasons, 1. saving money, 2. safety, 3. keeping an eye on me.
Whatever, it turned out that i hit a downswing and can't afford a place anyway.
So in conclusion,
Grinding out poker is really hard. I think as long as I give everything I've got in my body to this, it will pay off in the future. Unfortunetly for now, i don't have any guidance (mentor wise) so learning is mostly going to be made from trial and error.....however long it takes i guess.
I'm pretty excited to see what will happen a year from now. Even a few months could bring anything. I guess i'll have to keep breathing to find out.
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