Broke and back again

So, towards the end of July i decided to drive up to Turning Stone for a few days. I split a room with Z and DSK who are both baller online pros. The reason why I went up was because T-stone was having some tournaments and I figured the cash games would be good too. Well, I had about 1k to go with and I decided to do the first event $300+50. Actually, Eng ended up taking a piece of me so i was only in for 175 but after 2.5 hours of play i busted. Z busted a little bit after me and DSK made it pretty far, i think 30ish but didn't get paid.

The first night i won about 200 at 200 max 2-3 NL. Me, Z, and DSK all sat at the same table and it was their first time playing this high live. Anyways, the remainder of the trip went shitty for me and I ended up losing like 600ish at 200 max. Things just didn't go my way really and for some reason it was hard for me to keep focus. By the end of the trip I was down to 375, 200 of which was DSK's. Afterwards i drove to Rochester to stay with Brauner for a day. It was nice seeing her since we haven't seen each other all summer but the 5.5 hour drive back home was rough. Actually it wasn't too bad, somehow the time seemed to pass by.

I was able to get 75 from eng which gave me a total of 1.5 buy ins to work with. I decided to go to Bloomfield and played for about an hour and left up 325 due to this hand. I limped with 89s and guy to my left makes it 10 to go, i think 5 ppl saw the flop which came 8 8 Q, 2 clubs. 2 ppl checked behind me and i checked as well and the preflop raiser bets 25. 1 caller and i raise it to 100. The guy to my left snap calls and it goes heads up. Turn is a blank and i shove for 240ish. he thinks for a little bit and then folds. I picked up a few pots after that but only played for like an hour since 80% of my br was on the table and at risk.

This brought me up to 650 and slowly i began to rebuild my bankroll.
The day after me and eng decided to go to AC. We sat at the same table and beforehand i borrowed 100 from him. We sat at the same table and i ended up being in for 700. With about 300ish infront of me the following hand comes up.
I limp with 66 in EP and button makes it 12 to go. I call and it goes multiway. Flop comes K x 6, all hearts. I bet 25 and the preflop raiser calls so we go heads up. Turn is a blank and i bet 25 again and he calls again. River is a 6 giving me the nuts. I bet 100 and he looks overwhelmed and uneasy and then goes "Raise...I'm all in." I could not have called any faster lol. He ended up having KK for the 2nd nuts. So sick but the sickest part is that it was for all my money. I can't believe that shit happened but i guess later on if i get 1 outted for a huge pot, i can't be surprised.

So overall that session i won about 230. Eng didn't do as well but its ok, he's a millionaire.
Right now i'm at Lavallette at Adam's beach house. Yesterday I went to AC from here and played for a little bit. I was in for 500 after someone flopped a set on my QQ on a T high flop and lost with 66 on 445 flop getting it all in on the flop vs A5, turn A. I ended up getting it back though when I had JJ on a T high flop and a guy stacks off with AT. The 1/2 is ridiculously weak during the day time at Borgata on a Friday.

Well, this brings me back up to 1k and atleast i have some money now to work with. I'm not exactly playing my best at the tables and its hard for me to keep my composure but at the same time i have no choice, i have to play. I owe my mom 500 for this previous month's credit card bill. The problem i seem to have is this recurring theme of leaving when i'm up due to safety for my br and the fact that i NEED the money. When over 50% of my br is at risk at all times it does become stressfull too but what can i do if i'm constantly giving money to my mom and that leaves me to play with the bare minimum. Maybe getting a job would help. I guess i gotta keep on grinding it out so we'll see how it goes.