the every day struggle

I'm trying to find balance. torn between what i want to be doing and where i want to be and where i am. Although, everything in life should be manageable. I'm just gonna ramble...

This is life. Those of us that let it out through journals find that we can express this angst about life in a deep and healthy way, hoping the reader will understand where we are coming from. Transferring your negative energy into something positive is key to day to day success. I guess life is a game, you can pull the chord at any point and choose to stop playing otherwise you're in it for the long haul.
Everyone faces this, therefore no one's life is more or less important than another.
People turn to religion for this sole justice. 'treat your neighbor as you would treat yourself.' Makes sense, there doesn't have to be a deep seeded story as to where this came from. The good we do upon each other will only help us. It's only when we can't handle the situations and put the weight on someone elses shoulders rather than our own is when things become unbalanced.
I guess that is my religion.
Any morals that you live by become your religion. I do believe people are good for the most part. Maybe some just get lost.

I'm not sure where this is all coming from or why. My life has taken alot of twists and turns in the last couple months and i'm starting to wake up from this. It is necessary to learn from your experiences in order to move forward.
Whether some people make certain decisions that others wouldn't have made, had they 'been in the same situation', might come from some sort of method to their madness. Maybe only time will tell.
What are mistakes anyway? I guess its the things we do that negatively impact us and the people around us. Is it possible to always be aware of how we act towards each other? It doesn't seem likely when we're caught up in the moment. We rely on our subconcious level to take over. Somehow, chaos always stirrs up. There are stresses in the world and we are the sponge that has to soak it up. I guess when our brain is overwhelmed, we panic and lose control in our lives. This constant up and down seems to have an overbearing toll on our minds.
So in a buddhist sense, our goal in life is really to just maintain day to day balance.

Easier said than done = /